Jerk!

You're a punk!!
I hate you!!
How could you break into my facebook account and change my password!!
damn it !!
you're totally a jerk!!
childish!!!
disaster!!
i hate you!!!
FUCK!!!

My love_

She's gone forever..
bye..take care..
I will always remember you..
I'm sorry I din't even see you for the last time..
but..I know you understand my situation..
Life is at the tiring..so that's why you get a nap and rest..
you av already have 12childrens and lotz of grandchildrens..
that's what God have gifted you..

Sitting here thinking about you,
I hear you call my name,
Wen , wen, wen

As I turn to see who's calling me
I see no one, only hear your voice.

I glance across the room,
To see if anyone else hears it too.

But no one seems to notice the look on my face.

I miss you so much,
I keep telling you,
But you don't seem to hear me.

Still you're calling out my name, only louder,
As the tears rolled down my face,
I glance around the room,
And see you amongst my family, and friends
The look upon your face says you're peaceful now.

I realized it was time to let you go.
Although I will always love and miss you.

I turn my head to see if anyone notices you.
Then I turn back, and you're gone.

I hear you, so very gently say,
"I love you", "Good- Bye!"
"Bye", I said . . .

God loves you more..
Rest in peace..
my dear love..

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.

But I could take this as a lesson..
for I will sacrifice for my mummy more..
I wanna say, I love your daughter, granny..
Please bless her a healthy and happy life..
I wanna take care her, won't leave her..
I will love her with full of my heart..
She loves me very too, I know..
I miss the time every morning and night I kiss her before I go to school and before I sleep..
Coz' I know she's the one..your daughter..
I love her..

Mummy, I love you~
Mummy, your daughter 16years 7months already..
but I'm always little baby in your heart, little princess in the family..

2010.04.23

这是我的第一个中国BLOG
我不懂中文，因为我接受英语教育..
所以，如果有错，请原谅我..

这数个月,
我总是走在街上一个沉默和孤独
根据我自己
在嘈杂拥挤的课堂
我可以听到自己的呼吸
我能听到我的心跳
我凝视着我所有的朋友
开始想
为什么我一个人？
为什么我沉默 ？
我一直在怀疑，为什么我在这里
在一个陌生的地方
我很孤独..

故事是不一样的童话故事
但一开始几乎是相同的
这个世界是一个特别为单身人士寻找充分
但
我怎么形容我的知己？
我始终梦想
嗯，我不知道
直到我遇见了他
Do I ?
我很困惑..

我想 Dr.Cupid 在这里我破碎的心来解决
好吧，如果你坚持
我坚持..
他是有趣的，善良，忠诚..
当然，这是所有友好的希望
与精神和热情，温暖和浪漫
他是那种男人
正如~
如果你在超市与他一起
和你去得到的东西
但你
当你看不到他
你开始搜寻他在过道里
直到突然
正好在海中的手推车
你看到他..
而且，只有他..
因为虽然他的周围与许多其他男人的手推车
就好像他们根本不存在
但是，只有他..

意大利人有这一个词
'un colpo di fulmine'
他只是抓住你的心，引起你注意
我的声音在一个梦幻的步道了遐想
我让出了深刻的渴望的叹息..
并迅速回来脚踏实地
诚实说,
我真的不知道他喜欢什么
但是
我肯定知道这是我遇见他时
他是他..

但现在，请听这个歌曲
200Pounds Beauty OST 的 "You Don't Know I Love You'
'你不知道我爱你'

由于叮当是粗制滥造退出，一个记录的开放和弦是听取
必须记住;
不要浪费一分钟的爱因为
爱不会等任何人..

现实没有童话故事一样
从前一段时间
有一个公主
她注定要遇到2个王子在他的在童话故事里..
其中一个王子太照顾和控制公主
王子不相信公主
他太自我,自私,太大男人
他从来不关心公主感觉或认为
王子只是想拥有公主
他忘记了如何爱她
爱不这样的
每天公主尽量保持沉默
但王子总是责骂和怀疑公主..
公主并不快乐
王子越对待公主好,更是她寂寞
她不能与一个不相信她的人
王子疑问公主公主喜欢另一个王子的事
公主是寂寞的..
她不知道该怎么让王子相信..
终于决定保持沉默
另一个王子没有显示任何东西
也许他当时很生气公主打扰
公主不知道还能做些什么了
两个王子的故事
公主很伤心..
她从命运无法运行
但它只好接受命运的道路..
她不想伤害任何人,
只好默默的支持他们..
公主很不高兴被怀疑..
她希望他们的信任，相信..
公主没有不忠于
但她不能否认和掩盖她的感情
王子要她选择一个
公主非常混乱
这是因为公主越来越寂寞和孤独
公主不知道什么是王子的想法
王子并没有说他的真实感受
王子们爱公主或不 ?
公主害怕孤独
到现在为止公主不知道该怎么办

最后，公主应该选择了牺牲自己
你觉得呢？

爱是复杂的
甜的
苦的..
这只是一个故事..
爱情是知足..
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现
男人男人
多么希望你是对的人..

有好幾次我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用
就當作是寂寞..

You & Him

2010/04/04

Things had passes..
but why..YOU still wanna dig things out..
Why??
Is it you did not satisfied with me?
Just say it..
But why again and again you said break up..
How many times have you said~
How many times I have been forgiving..
Is it over ?
Should I cry ?
Why no body could understand me..
Why that include you..
I pick you among the many ones..
Shouldn't you be grateful ?
Shouldn't you be happy ?
But why again and again..
You doubt me..
This time just because I like the photos and commented on it..
Don't pull HIM into our case..
HE's innocent..
You are the one who think too much..
really..
You asked me to choose one between you guys..
You thought it would be easy ?
When I chose you, You should feel appreciate..
but why YOU hurt me~
Why~
The poem below is the poem two months ago..
2010/02/04
"Once again I'm in this tough dilemma,
Where I just don't know what to do.
My heads telling me no and to just let it go,
But my hearts got too much love for you.

But then again my heads giving me visions,
Visions of us being an item,
Visions of us being happy,
And me being there when you are frightened.

So for me to say I like you,
Would be just a drop in the ocean.
And to chose between head or heart,
It looks like they both win.."

That day HE scolded me ;
"tulan nia see ur msg. dun sms me le la"

I ruin YOU and HIM ??
Both of YOU hurt me even more deep..
I did not want to be in dilemma..
DID NOT WANT~
It's true..
But why you don't trust me..
Why..
If you don't trust me also, you should trust your best friend..
How could you..
Hurt me with your words..
Don't you think it is too over ?!!

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please..
Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent suculent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away..
Is IT ENOUGH TO LOVE ~

JingWen is DIED today..

_My GirlFriends; especially CONVenT's SisterS_ =)

_I'm proud to be CONveNt GirLs_
CONVENT ROCKS!!

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27th. of February 2010

Everyday ~

I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
(I'm not missing you)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
(I got life to do)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
(I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh see the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not missing
I'm not missing you
I'm not missing you
I'm not missing you..